Post by Stacey Jones on Jun 5, 2007 13:58:53 GMT -5
Ive been off the board and away from lifting for quite sometime. I have not given up on lifting, I love it and miss it so much. I want to say thank you to those of you who have offered me your support and friendship during this time.
I am sure there are many of you that know the whole story or some variation of it.
I first want to apologize to anyone who may have had a friendship damaged due to my actions, i am truly sorry and trust me I am going through hell as a result of those actions.
Secondly As I said I am going through hell, I have lost several people in my life in the last few months as a result of decisions I have made, including my mother. In the last week I lost someone who has been my rock through my seperation from my husband, someone who has been my best friend for months and at times in the last few months has felt like my only friend (even though I knew that was not true). I have made some really bad decisions in the past 10 months, trusted the wrong people and am paying for it dearly.
I have been put on antidepressants which are not working, and last Thursday was placed on heavy medication for anxiety. I was written out of work until tomorrow(Wednesday) due to my mental and emotional state.
I am in my own hell right now and at times do not want to continue, there are times I want to go to sleep and just sleep through the pain.
So I am asking for your prayers for me to have the strength to get through this. I am asking for your prayers to help my children through this.
I feel as though I have no right to ask many of you for this however I know that like many things in life I cannot do this alone. Thanks to everyone for taking the time to read this.
I am sure there are many of you that know the whole story or some variation of it.
I first want to apologize to anyone who may have had a friendship damaged due to my actions, i am truly sorry and trust me I am going through hell as a result of those actions.
Secondly As I said I am going through hell, I have lost several people in my life in the last few months as a result of decisions I have made, including my mother. In the last week I lost someone who has been my rock through my seperation from my husband, someone who has been my best friend for months and at times in the last few months has felt like my only friend (even though I knew that was not true). I have made some really bad decisions in the past 10 months, trusted the wrong people and am paying for it dearly.
I have been put on antidepressants which are not working, and last Thursday was placed on heavy medication for anxiety. I was written out of work until tomorrow(Wednesday) due to my mental and emotional state.
I am in my own hell right now and at times do not want to continue, there are times I want to go to sleep and just sleep through the pain.
So I am asking for your prayers for me to have the strength to get through this. I am asking for your prayers to help my children through this.
I feel as though I have no right to ask many of you for this however I know that like many things in life I cannot do this alone. Thanks to everyone for taking the time to read this.
